Tuesday, November 17, 2009

empty, occupied spaces

... and he sat there. staring.

his gaze as empty as hers.

their silent desperation burns like coal branding in their hearts, enduring painfully, staring, as deep as it can get into each other's thoughts.

... and so she too, sat there. staring, as tho time stood still, oblivious to the reality with the world accelerating.

the melancholy of it all, in a subtle explosion of a gradual accumulation of beauty, their simple relationship with great ailing details.

"i spent much time filling it up, you know? that big empty space... since you moved out" she said, breaking the silence of the wispy air that floats by.

"yea... saw that" .... he nodded.

that space.

a prolonged interval where they crossed and shared moments of similarities between the parallel lines that resembled them.

"how does it feel?" he asked knowingly.

"... hard work. things didnt feel belonged, u know? couldnt get the whole arrangement of stuff to fit right. they can get into quite a splinter at times."

he nodded again.

as much as both their vague existence in each other's life, their relentless gaze are as tho gazing into the mirror that reflects the truth, is a lie.

why? she could have ask. why?

but she did not. she will not.


He. an ambiguity. a literature that none can find on any paper.

She. plaque by the mysteries of such a parallel relationship of the distance between her and an empty, occupied space.


Sunday, November 15, 2009

not that strong

now how many times have i felt like losing it?

lost count.

contrary to popular beliefs, i'm really not that strong. the foundation of it all.

but mrsupermanBoss did tell me that it comes on stronger each time. why issit that i tot that i've overcame but it never stops eventually. becus it loads you in higher stages and stages and stages. that's how you grow, he said. gets harder each time, just to to push you higher and make you stronger.

and so there's just beefs that you'll have to fight all your life.

or maybe, the late nights arent doing any good. been a week plus since i slept at the time i promised myself becus work load has been crazy with all the emerge stuff nearing. the quiet nights seep in, leaving me fighting the ever infamous whirlpool of so-called loneliness.

it makes me ponders upon the stark difference of what day and night does to people.

more time to be me?

how stable can one be with an emotionaly shaken foundation?

only God knows.

and there's these songs. there's these certain hours of the day. there's these state of mind. there's these calm rainy days. there's these cold, chilly nights. there's these silences.... that reminds of me .....


.... i only wish for a shoulder to lean on under the blanket of stars

Friday, November 13, 2009

Meet Micky the Mac

my new baby is here!



i call it micky the mac. ^^

this month has been crazeeEeEeeee i feel like i've got no time to breath!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

you

you.

pissed? well not quite. the term "pissed at you" is over-rated.

disappointed? overused. been thru that way too many times.

i've been put up with attitudes too often these few weeks.

i can't biliv that includes you.

yes, you.

has always been. who am i kidding? nothing i do not know.

how big of a capacity do i have for you?

why?

God...why?

im actually pretty good at being that splinter up your a**

Seriusly, i'm not kidding.

i never had problems winning arguements that can put someone down emotionally down to shitpits with my very meticulous well-defined words of insults.

leading Emerge events in VU, proves to be a challenge.

and the attitudes? don't even go there. alas i wasnt wasted, i counter 'em quite well cus i would be a self-proclaimed queen of attitude. baskets.

but you know what truly kept me together and not make 'em babies cry? God keep reminding me to counter bad attitudes with a good attitude.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Summer Skimmers by BlackMilkProject!



Shoes i totally heart!!! like... TOTALLY!

so ofcors, i gave it a name that i totally heart as well... Summer Skimmers. i tot it sounds perfectly beautiful.

Makes me feel like it's holiday. The comfy material with the homely off-white and brown color, feels just like a kick-back-day with summer breeze washing off your face.

holidayyyyyYyYYy!

selling them makes me happy enuf to level up on the stress balance. :)

check 'em out at www.blackmilkproject.blogspot.com

Friday, October 09, 2009

my purpose found

just finished practising my preaching challenge for tmrw with tomato keeping time.

my topic is "discovering your purpose in God". was the same one for my CLT preaching test, and now even better, ofcors. nyeks.

never fails to remind me how faithful and amazing God has been in my life.

He gave and restored me fully by giving me a purpose to live for. how more beautiful can life get?

i'd never be who and where i am today without Him. and yes, all the yakkings and whining in all the previous posts are just attention seeking and meaningless ramblings.

I'd never trade for anything in the world for what i'm doing now.

>:P

things in my head

stress level : bursting out from from bottom to top at volcanic rate

not exageratin one bit.

its Emerge 09
there VU to take care of
work load in Dash... indescribable
just started in blackmilkproject

the plannings and thinking and strategising. oh how i hate using my brains. i have difficulties gathering 'em functional braincells. when i do, i feel like i killed gazillions of them.

status : damn hungry cus i only had a light breakfast but i really have no appetite.

i feel like ... just sulking.

preaching challenge tmrw at 11am.

gosh ......

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Black Milk Project

I'm trying hard to throw in some coins into my Piggy Bank



www.blackmilkproject.blogspot.com

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